I have been so bad about blogging lately, but have not forgotten. 2 months of slow times brings about few insane weeks. Most nights have been spent writing programs or diets, which have taken far too long, as I like to be meticulous. I have also be in a little slump myself. After so many weeks of being motivated and gung ho, I had a couple weeks of what I call "depression eating." It is sad. I have had days of self doubt, days where I didnt want to get out of bed, and days where my memory and organization have gone down the crapper.
            While I try to stay positive, take my supplements, sleep, and exercise, it is a fact of life that we all have moods and ups and downs along the way. I try to the best person I can be, but the reality is I am a long way off from that, although I am definitly trying. This is not a good thing when preparing for a fitness competition. I admire the pros and hope one day I can have the self control and determination that they do, because I have been slipping. There are 3 weeks left, and I am going to try to stick to my plan and keep my chin up and keep training my ass off. Life is a journey, and this is just one little bump along the way. I must add that I really do miss some of my friends that have gone away  (Christina, Laura, Erin!!, Seyleen, Sawson) but I know we are silently cheering one another along despite our distance, and I really appreciate the new ones as well (Tammy, Bronwen, and Sean, Id be stuck without you).
So heres a bad pic with bad lighting. Lets see how much can be done in three weeks